...:::JinggHuann ♥ All Alone & Emo:::...

Hate chiuu! x(

2011-01-23T22:50:00.000-08:00

Heatttchiuu!

Maybe there is something which I can't take it.

I really don't know how I'm feeling so furious when I'm talking to you.

You were like to just put all the blame on me.

Ghheez!

Life's are better without you.

***********************

Today I do heard something and it was just what I think.

Duhh,

another suckyy were born!

Won't go near you that much,

since you're really horrible for me.

And I don't even feel like seeing you.

*************************

Loads of thing happened.

But time are still passing.

And yea,

I'm waiting. ;D

Ciaooss peoples.

:DD

-JinggHuann.

xoxo.

Sign off, 24/1/2011, 3.05p.m

I wonder will it ever be? NO! (:

2011-01-11T23:16:00.000-08:00

* Looking at my dream, it seems to be near, but it is just so far away. *

Everything was just the same,

although I thought that it had already changed.

I'm still being hated from loads of people,

I'm still being a people who are not qualified to be with them.

Loads of word I heard it again and again.

I knew it.

It sounds so familiar,

And it hurts me.

And yea,

It do.

(':

Those tears which is hiding behind,

you can't see;

Those day trapped inside the dark,

You won't know.

I thought it has been different since the day people started accept me.

But finally now this stupid dreaming gurl have to wake up,

Open her eyes and see what is the truth.

Everything were just the same,

Nothing has changed though the time passed so many years.

Since im small until now.

Always.

(':

I don't know how to express my feelings out,

and don't even know what to do.

Anything suggestion to ask me to think positive,

I've been so damn bored of it.

Due to the things they said,

I understand and I knew.

I don't know where and how I know that,

but I just do.

Hoping that everything can be alright.

Sometimes lying on the bed, hearing moody songs and cry,

would be a better way to chat with others.

-JinggHuann.

xoxo.

Sign off,12/1/2011. 4.35p.m

Bookssssss.

2011-01-08T08:11:00.001-08:00

* Goodbyes are only hurt if only you know after this there is no more Hello. (': *

Lady Antebellum's "Need You Now." - My fav.

I love this song because it gives me a lot of idea for writing the story.

And of course,

Yiruma's music do help me a lot,too.

Really love it.

^~^

Who said emo is harmful?

Hye!

It is just an habit wookay?

Its is a way to be honest to yourself.

I think?

Well,

for me,

It is.

********************************

Bought loads of reference book for phy, chem and am today.

But I'm still alive while looking at the thick bookssssssssss.

Saw my primary friend there!

But we din't talk or even say Hello.

Firstly, I don't know he still remember me or not, since I know my look is kinda different. =X

Secondly, He is not sure it is me or not.

Until the night we msn and talk,

Him "I think i saw you."

Jing: "Summit Popular?"

Him:"Yea."

Jing: "I saw you too. o.O"

Him: "sad, pai seh about my wearing.LOL. so jin chai, LOL"

*Swt .. @x@*

Jing: "Ahahaha, normal for guys. (:"

*LOL*

I know right? x3

Well,

after that he offline sendiri and din tell me.

And I'm stupid to think his line got problem or dc.

.___.

Grrrr!

* Guys always loves to leave without saying a goodbye. (': *

It's still the same,

should be knowing it since the day after it.

(':

After that it was 2 year + later.

I changed load I know.

And yea, the same as him.

;)

I don't really like it anyway but only as a friend.

Btw,

I'm gonna stop the craps.

Gonna be doing my HW tomorrow.

Bye.

-JinggHuann.

xoxo.

Sign Off, 9/1/2011. 00.32 a.m.

Form 4. (:

2011-01-06T22:17:00.000-08:00

*Cutiee Kitty~ ;)*

I'm form 4 this year,

Finally!

I'm not in da back of everyone anymore. :D

I love my English & Sejarah teacher!

Chem and Phy quite okay.

Have to write da report as hw for da first lesson for chem.

But for phy its easier. x3

Today I saw Miss Ong! :D

She is still here and she will be teaching our class. ;D

Thank god I'm in this class. ;)

Hope I can stay in this class until form 5.

Never wanna be at the back anymore.

For me it is such a shame when people asked me "What class are you from?"

I will be only answer "3H"

After that there is no more topic s between.

SHIRTSSS!

I just hate it!

Why am I being at da H class which my result can really get into C , D ?

You will never know what teacher tell us.

"You guys know what class are you all or not?"

"3H."

"3H! You guys still got face to tell people tat you all are in 3H! Come on! Next year study hard! go to A. "

Da teacher just only tell us this.

wth.. =w=

Maybe in their eyes only A,B,C,D class 's student study hard.

Lain-lain all only play play play.

Stupid thinking.

Gosh! I would never ever forget da stupid teacher's face!

Just because we are in H class so ?

We are not human and we're play type of student or what ?

What kind of teacher will be thinking like this ?

There is a BC world says "有教无类".

For a teacher, should be teaching all the students no matter what class they are.

It doesn't means student which is in H class are bad or doesn't wanna learn.

Why are some teachers are like this?

Well,

whatever,

Now my student's nightmare are over.

I'm in C class now and when people asked what class I am.

I would be proud and answer them "I'm in 4C. (:"

The 2 weeks before PMR wasn't a wast of time for me to study.

but only the result is not as I think.

Hope I could help my sister's in her studies as more as i can.

Was worried about her. ;(

-JinggHuann.

xoxo.

Sigh off, 07/1/2011, 02.45 p.m

Best Friend. Kana Nishino.

2010-12-12T05:36:00.000-08:00

Love this song! ;D

Lyrics:

Arigatou
Kimi ga ite kurete hontou yokatta yo
Donna toki datte itsumo
Waratte irareru
Tatoeba, hanarete itemo nannen datte mo
Zutto kawaranai desho
Watashitachi Best Friend
Suki dayo, daisuki dayo

Konna osoi jikan ni gomen ne
Hitori ja seppatsu matte kita no
Kimi no koe sukoshi kiketara
Ganbareru

Nande mo uchiake rareru
Mama nimo ienai koto mo zenbu
Dareyori mo wakatte kureru

Ureshii toki wa jibun no koto mitai ni
Yorokonde kurete
Dame na toki wa chanto shikatte kureru sonzai

Arigatou
Kimi ga ite kurete hontou yokatta yo
Donna toki datte itsumo
Waratte irareru
Tatoeba, hanarete itemo nannen datte mo
Zutto kawaranai desho
Watashitachi Best Friend
Suki dayo, daisuki dayo

Tsuyogatte mo suguni bare teru
Hekonderu toki wa massaki ni meru
Kureru yasashisa ni mou nando mo sukuwarete

Naki tai toki wa omoikkiri nakeba ii
Soba ni iru kara tte
Dareyori mo tsuyoi mikata

Sonna kimi ni watashi wa nanika shite agerareteru kana?
Nanika attarasuguni tondeku kara,
Zettai

Arigatou
Kimi ga ite kurete hontou yokatta yo
Donna toki datte itsumo
Waratte irareru
Tatoeba, hanare teitemo nannen datte mo
Zutto kawaranai desho
Watashitachi Best Friend
Suki dayo, daisuki dayo

Donna toki mo inotte iru yo
Sekai de ichiban ni shiawase ni natte hoshii

Arigatou
Kimi ga ite kurete hontou yokatta yo
Donna toki datte itsumo
Waratte irareru
Tatoeba, hanare teitemo nannen datte mo
Zutto kawaranai desho
Watashitachi Best Friend
Suki dayo, daisuki dayo.

English translation.

Lyrics ( English )

Thank you
I’m glad that you’re here
No matter the time
I can always smile
No matter how many years pass while we’re away from each other – Nothing will have changed
We’re Best Friends
I love you, I really love you

I’m sorry for waiting so long to say this
I was driven into a corner alone
When I hear your faint voice
I felt like I could make it

I can tell you anything
Even things I can’t tell my mom
You understand better than anyone

When I’m happy
you’re just as happy for me
And you’re the one to scold me when I’m wrong

You see through my pretenses when I’m feeling down
You’re the first to send me a caring emails
That have saved me so many times

You said I should go ahead and cry when I feel like crying
Because you’d be at my side
My greatest ally

I wonder if there’s anything I can do for someone like you?
When I figure it out I’ll race over to you,
I promise

I’ll always be praying
I want you to be the happiest person in the world

***************************************

:) ♥

- JinggHuann.

xoxo.

Sigh off, 12/12/2010, 09.44p.m

;D

2010-11-06T00:41:00.000-07:00

* Drunk little kitten made me laugh. :D *

I think I'm okay with it.
For everything that is happening.

Started think of,
" Everything were just a dream. A stupid dream .. "

Yesterday night I had a weird dream.
I don't know why am I having weird dream always.

Maybe because of my mind is weird?
OMG.
=X

Found this picture from google.

Do you notice that I love this kitten very much?
;D

AHAHAHA.
:P

Meaningful picture.

Cute but true. ;D

*************************

Cats are sad.
D:

Don't cha know?
):

:D

Hope my day will end with a TRUE smile not treas anymore.
I'm hoping for it everyday.
(:

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

MSN kena spamming.

2010-11-06T00:35:00.000-07:00

^
^
^

This is what happened to my msn once I on.
Grrr!

Shock to see that.

Banyak spam spam thingyy.

.__.

*Random*
(:

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

today morning. ):

2010-11-05T23:56:00.000-07:00

*Sad. Why is everybody leaving me alone? D: *

Today morning mummy said wanna go shopping.
But because of some problem I din go.

She said I'm very unpleasant to look at.
Then they went out.
)':

I heard the sound of the door lock.
Heart is breaking, too.

I told myself not to cry,
everything is alright.
"Jing Huan, you're used to be it already, right? So you should be okay with it. "

I told myself that.
But end up I still broke down and cry.

Feel that the whole world don't need me anymore.
Feel like dying.

Wondering,
why is everybody treating me like this?
Is there anything that I done wrong ?

Or just as what she said,
I'm unpleasant to look at ..

Sighh ..
Maybe ?
And yes, I think so.

):

After cried I realize my eyes of getting puffy.
Sighh.
Until I almost can't open it.
D;

* I had a dream, I had a heart; don't spoil it, don't break it. ): *

I think of,
Why am I working so hard ?
Just to hope you can smile ..

Why am I doing it with my heart,
since I know you will just break it so easily.

Why .. ?

Everything I done,
end up what I get is just I'm very unpleasant to look at in your eyes.

You scold me,
You beat me.
I'm okay with it.

I do what I should do.

But everytime you just simply said a word and break my heart so easily,
that's why I HATE TO GO OUT WITH YOU !

Scold me useless when I'm afraid of stranger,
you should know right, I got this kind of fear of stranger.
But you still force me to.
End up i tried to, you said I'm just useless.

Everytime when your money is missing,
you blame at me.
As if I'm the one who stile it.

I'm not a thief!

You scold me and beat me and what so ever you done to me.

End up you found it,
you NEVER SAID ANYTHING EVEN A SORRY.

Whenever anything happened on me,
Like cousin bullying me. Scolding me with no reason.
You never care ,
You help them !

What kind of mother are you ?

Are you afraid of them ?
Or im just superr yong suii as you said until you just can don't care me at all ??

All these I don't care.
Still doing what I should do ..

* Everyone if finding for the dream, but sometimes they might get lost in the middle of the journey. *

I'm sad but I'm very stubborn.
I won't said the word like "sorry" to the one when I know im not.
Or even when i am.

Still remember my teacher told me that,
"I can see that there is a big dream of you in your mind, go and work for it !"

I was blur in the beginning,
but I know the meaning at last.

I think so I might had some biggest dream of mine in my mind but just that I didn't notice it.

But now i think i knew.
(:

* Because of you .. I'm afraid .. *

* Will it be .. ? Not .. ? ): *

**************************

Btw,
I'm okay.
(:

Thanks for the view.
:D

-JinggHuann.
xoxo.
Sigh off, 6/11/2010, 03.32p.m.

(:

2010-11-04T02:01:00.000-07:00

* Throw it away, forget yesterday. *

Lalalala ~
Nothing much to talk about.

Nowadays I'm really bored and got nothing better to do.

Started learn da things abt form 4.
Quite okay with it.
(:

Anime anime anime everyday.
I think I'm getting fatter.
OMGOSHHHIEEE.

No way man.
Sighh.
>w<

Less on9,
because of my com is death, yea, again.
.____.

Grrr!
Noob com. >w<

And finally my phone is alive.
Ahaha.
No more problems.

Can text me and stay contact if you want to.
Yea, you're very welcome.
:D

Singing all around in my room.
Playing NDS and so on.
Damn bored.

And end up im here to share my day.

I'm not going to school anymore.
It is boring and meaningless for me since there is nothing to study.

But actually I think I'm lazy.

x3

End.

I love ♥ Japan !
:D

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

Sign off, 04/11/2010, 05.10 p.m.

I just need music in my life so badly. (;

2010-10-27T22:01:00.000-07:00

Music save my soul. ♥

I just love music so badly,
When ever I heard a melody,
It can really changed my mood every time.

Especially music that without lyrics.
Soft music is my favorites.

Piano, violin is really my lover.
(:

Even I didn't learn before,
But I can play it by hearing.

And of course,
I'm not an intelligent,
I might made some mistake, too.

Mummy always said that I'm lame to hear those music.
She call it "useless".

Anyway, I don't care.

And yea,
as you guys know I'm really a stubborn person.
(:

I decide to learn violin,
mummy though I'm just playing a joke so she don't allow.
But,
I will show her.

How she scold me also nevermind.

Because I really love violin. ♥

Its so soft, so touch.
Until it can really made me stop my step and close my eyes.
And the melody flows in my heart.

And I did watched some anime about music.
Like : La corde D'oro
My favorite music anime.

Its about violin.
But sadly,
There is no more for season 2 after the ep 1 of it.
Sighh.
I wish I could continue.

People said violin is hard to learn but by the way I wish to try it.
No matter how hard itiiz,
I wish to overcome it.

And with my stubborn-ness,
I think I can.

But maybe I'm just dreaming or what so ever.

I don't even care.
(:

That's how I act.
Like it ? Hate it ?
Whatever.
(:

* There are thunders of loves surrounding us, did you notice? (: *

Music,
For me is all I've got.
It surrounding us everyday.
Did you notice?

And for me that's all I need.
(:

* Love can be fade away sometimes. (: *

The word "true love" by people's mouth can be fade away sometimes,
And yea it do hurt's people every time.
For me it's kinda useless.

Why should we suffer of it ? While it's just not worth at all.
If it's worth, it won't made your tears dropped on your face.

Therefore,
I prefer music,
You can't touch it, but you can feel it.

It flows into your heart just so easily,
and it won't hurt you so badly.

It save you.

From those lonely nights only music can be along with you.
Where is the people who said "I love you" , uhuh?

"Love", you don't have you say it, just have to feel it.
(:

Am I right ?

* "Rawrr" means "I love you" in dinosaur language. :P *

I heard this word through net.
"Rawrr" means wo ai niee in dinosaur language,
Then I wonder itiiz that the dinosaur loves everyone ?

Because the dinosaur really "rawrr" to anyone.
=X

Ahaha. Funny ?
(:

* Music means love for me. (: *

Those music note are really AWESOME for me,
it's just a note.

But when you play it,
It is just so so wonderful.

It turns to a melody.
It is awesome isn't it?
(:

For me I think so.

*****************************

Every single word tells a lie, every single tears tells a story;
Every single soul shows a broke heart, and every music note shows a love to you.
(:

♥

Maybe you might thinking wth is this girl writing so many craps.
But, that's how I feel.

And that's my story.

You can just click [X] if you don't like it.
Please don't made any rude comment.

I don't want my blog become dirty.
Thanks.
(:

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.
Sigh off, 28/10/2010, 4.40p.m

Finally its over.

2010-10-11T23:19:00.000-07:00

Bye form 3. Helleww FORM 4 ! :DD

PMR is over.

Now pulakk I don't know what to do after that.

Sighh.

But btw,

I think at least I no need to study and rushing lyk mad d.

Isn't it ?

Many people feeling happy and all this.

Saying merdeka and all those.

But I don't know why I just feel normal.

Maybe would be going out and gay for awhile and back to normal when its Nov.

To study form 4 ! ;D

Can't wait ! :P

Btw,

I think that's all.

All da best for those who sitting SPM.

GOOD LUCK!

- JinggHuann.

xoxo.

Sigh off, 12/10/2010. 6.28 p.m.

Examinations. (:

2010-09-30T22:51:00.000-07:00

Study ! Loves. (:

I started study around last week.
From day to afternoon,
from evening to night.
O.o

Hope it really works.
Cause my brain is really tired for it.
But well im alrite and I loves to study right now.
:DD

Well,
Still 3 more days to go.
48 Hours for me to study.
(:

I NEED MORE EXE !

Study study study ~
:DD

Hope there is nothing which will bother me during or before exams.
Or else *eham eham* ~

:P

I hope I can score 5 A's! >w<
Am I dreaming or crazy?
I don't care whatever people said !
I just want it !
And I believe in myself. (:

I can !!!

:P

Btw,
Sure I need you guys for wishing me good luck and all that.
I loves you guys.
:DD

Thankieees. (:

Hope can really score.
>c<

Off to study now ~

Weeeeee ~ :DD

-JinggHuann.
xoxo.
Sigh off, 2/10/2010, 2.00 p.m.

Its you - Michelle Branch

2010-09-14T10:51:00.000-07:00

It's you by Michelle Branch.

Lyric:

If tomorrow never comes
I would want just one thing
I would tell it to the stars and the sun
I would write it for the world to see
And it's you-ou-oooou
The light changes when you're in the room
Oh it's you-ou-oooou
Oh it's you

If tomorrow never comes
I would want just one wish
To kiss your quiet mouth
And trace the steps with my finger tips
And it's you-ou-ooou
The light changes when you're in the room

Oh it's you-ou-oooou
Oh it's you
Oh it's you-ou

Oh it's you-ou-oooou
Oh it's you
Oh oh it's you
Oh it's you-ou

*********************************

I don't know why i feel very touched when I heard this song.

I was trying to find an amv at first, and I heard this song in the amv.
I feel very touched.

And I tried to find out the song and lyrics.

Repeat and repeat hearing it.

My tears fall down.
I don't know why is my heart so empty.

I feel it while i heard it.
I notice it.

When I close my eyes and tried to wonder and get into the song.
I notice that I can't.

"Oh .. It's you .."
The lyrics keeps on repeating this.

But in my heart there is nobody.
No one can really stay in my heart.
No one but only emptiness.

My tears fall down while I found out.
I didn't know it before I notice.

"why ..?"
I asked a stupid question that will never be answered.

I don't know why everyone need to hurts me like this.
For everyone I know, I heard, I knew.
They will hurts me.
I don't know why they will did it so easily.

My heart been empty because of it.
No one can really stay in my heart.
I don't want the person whom stay in it is the person that will makes me cry more then makes me smile.

I knew i'm kinda used to be it.

*Crying alone in front of the computer.
When friends find me, I keeps on typing like normal.*

Since when im a kid I never hope people whom around me will loves me.
Or maybe will treat me truly with their heart.

I knew how fake are they.
But still,
I believe in them.

I don't know why I would do so.

Since when im small nobody will come to makes me happy.
All they know is just scolding, fighting, and so on.

I don't know what's love, happiness, sadness.
I cried without any sound.
I don't know it hurt myself when im small.
Now maybe I knew it.
But still im doing the same thing.

I would rather believe in everyone no matter how bad the person are.
Because if I didn't do so.
I might hurt some one whom is true with me.
I don't even wanna hurt single of them.
For me they are my everything.

I rather just hurt for the fake's then hurts the true's.

I'm hurt too if I hurt them.

People said "Uhuh? What kind of people is this larh ?! You hurt people then you cry ?!"
I remember there is someone told me this.

I feel hurt when I hurt some one.
Cause I treat everything as its my world.

One small tiny peace hurt,
My world would be falling apart cause of that.

I don't know why am I born to be like this.

My heart is empty yet,
It seems that im still trying to make it more empty and maybe will just filled with those hurt.

Or maybe I'm finding ?
But I think I've got no hope at all.

Just don't know what I want.
I really don't know myself.

I always looking up towards the dark sky at night.
Hoping that there is starts.

I don't know why I like it so much.

Maybe,
In my heart only those stars can really be with me until the sun raise.
No lies.

I stop here.
My keybored damn wet d.

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

Sigh off, 15/09/2010, 02.20 a.m.

Hurt truly madly deeply with a smile.

2010-09-06T08:27:00.000-07:00

I knew I'm just like a fool.
Believe you again and again.
But end up what I get is just nothing but tears.

But still.
I smile through that after crying, hurting and bleeding.

Finally you said it out.
I had knew it earlier but just that I don't wanna mention it.
Thinking back from the past. (:

Tears rolling down without control when I saw it.
I cried for don't know how many hours for it.

I know it just so truly madly deeply hurt.
Thinking that.
Why everyone must be like that ?

They come and know me, Take number,
Chat whole day long. Said love me.
Then leave me. And broke my heart.

Am I really looks like a fool whom really easy to let people fooling around ?

My friends said that im too trusting.
I think i am.

And some of my friends will said
"Huiiyorr.. Jing Huan .. I really dont know how to say you lerh. You kesiao d arh? "

No for anything but only helping the people whom really hurt me.
I help him and his gf be together and talk to his gf.

And end up his gf believe for what I said.
Both of them ok d.

Then the guy leave me and never find me anymore ..

But I don't mind.

I'm really happy that both of them can be together and da main thing is he is happy.
I know his gf really can love him well.
Thats why I let it go.

I hurt alot, cry alot.
But still.
Praying for him to be happy no matter what.

I know its hurt.
But I don't mind. (:
As long as people is happy I will NEVER care.

Don't know how many time this had been repeat.

Since the first people whom came into my life.
He changed everything.

My sky is not that blue as usual anymore.
I'm afraid of everything that will makes me think of him.
Since he leave.

Still remember the day that he knew me is friday.
Night around 11+.
Ogos.
He talks alot. (:

I can truly remember how stupid im to think a thousand million reason for him.
For 2 months uhuh ?

Then my friends knew it.
She go force him to tell the reason that he leave.
By force he text me finally.
I was afraid of his name when I saw it.

But end up i open it.
Ahahaha.
Guess what he said ?
All bullshit.
I'm just 13 years old but I could know its fake.

He came by force.
I don't need to.
I hate it.
Thinking
"If you really wanna come you will come by urself without people telling. But why are you come by force? Serious I don't need it. "

I had been waiting for him to find a new one for almost 2 years.
Stupid uhuh ?

Until someone whom is really important to me came into my life.
I could remember how crazy im to him.
Everything is about him in my mind when he came.

15122009.

Only stupid's will remember this day.
Who itiiz uhuh?
I wonder. ;)

Maybe this date doesn't meant to him or maybe he just don't care it.
But for me its important enough for those memories. (:

When he leave me I didn't really cry like the first time cause the memory is really sweet enough to let me be happy for the rest of my life.

(:

Da ending is the same.
Can't you guys see it ?

I wonder why peoples loves to leave me so much.

Until make me feel that.

"If you wanna leave, I wish that you would just leave."

Once you leave.
I would know it cause its used to be it for me.
And I would know what to do.

Don't think that I'm that kind of girl which will haunted you until you die.
I'm not.
If you really think I am.
Sorry to tell you that you really don't understands me at all.

And I don't need anyone's pity.
You don't love me just straight away tel me or just leave me.
If you think you're too bad than I will like to tell you that You really really stupid.
If you think you're bad if you told me that then why you come know me at first ?
Tell me fake lies.
After all you think said a goodbye is bad ?
Uhuh?

@w@

Btw,
I don't mind you just leave like this.
Just do whatever you want.
As long as you're happy then I'll be alrite.

I'll being there for you no matter what.
Just come and find me whenever you need me.

Cries or hurts doesn't matter.

I had been hurt until not really got feelings d.
So don't mind everything.

(:

**************************

Btw I would like to shared a song name - My Immortal by Evanescence.

Emo song. (:
But I love it.

lyric :

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

Sign off, 07/09/2010. 00.07 a.m.

Bruno Mars - when you're lonely

2010-09-06T06:36:00.000-07:00

Hye hye hye!
I found an awesome song!

Bruno Mars - when you're lonely!

Lyrics.

Here I am again doing things I said that I wouldn't do
It's 3am and I'm rushing out the door to see you
Waiting all day,but now you wanna call me
Why do you do this to me all the time?

After all the things you put me through, still I come right back
But now I know the truth, I can finally see
You only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cos now i finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely

Had me fooled from the start and I quickly gave my heart
Cuz I loved you, loved you
But this is what happens when you're a lonely girl
with no one to turn you
Now I'm stronger, don't need you any longer
So get off your knees, your words don't mean anything

After all the things you put me through, still I come right back
But now I know the truth, I can finally see
You only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cuz now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely

Nothing's ever changing, decisions you can't make it
You just think of yourself and never me at all
If you're with your friends, you just string me along
But I won't allow it anymore, so it's time for me to move on

Cuz I can finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cos now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely

I can finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cuz now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely

**************************

Nice & true!

:DD

-JinggHuann.
xoxo.

Sign off, 06/09/2010. 9.42p.m.

♥ 05092010 :DD

2010-09-05T09:56:00.000-07:00

Hye guys.
I'm here to shard my day. (:

05092010 ♥

Morning , afternoon sucks. )':

But night,
Its AWESOME. :DD ♥

Went SS 2. Tuiton teacher belanja ~
:DD

She fetch us go. o.O
There are 4 of us.
Kah Chun, Serene, YY & Miee~

Kah Chun - Da tongku! ;D
Serene - mua laopo. :P
YY - Da seniap wn ~ o.O
Me - Da zhii zhaa wn. x)

Went a place name "remember to eat" had dinner. @w@
Taken some silly pictures with buddiees. ;D
*Will upload asap!*

After that went a place name "甜品哥哥".
;DD

I feel that im kinda childish cause i'm the only one whom eat like a child. LOL >w<>w<>♥

Of course. Taken my ''family'' 's pictures there !
But without teacher. LOL. ):

*Will upload asap!*

I look kinda dumb in every picture.
o.O

When we walked out from da shop.
OMG!
Guess wert?!
I saw a SUPER HWATIEE!
Grrr!
Da guy damn hwat wehyy! >w<
Wuuuawww~~!
Serene and me are gonna screm! XDXD

But on our way back in da car.
Serene and me sings inside da car ~
Damn syok! :DD
Ahaha. Her voice sounds more mature than mine.
Hehehe. She daii jie jie marh. :P

Both or us sing until we reach home.
Wert a nice moment?
Ahaha :P

Btw, I think thats all for tonight. ;D
Love yea.

Nitexz babiees. ♥

-JinggHuann.
xoxo.

Sign off,00.55. 08/09/2010.

楊千嬅-可惜我是水瓶座

2010-09-02T08:25:00.000-07:00

原来你这样珍惜我

从前在热恋中都未听讲过

别说这种行货

哪里留得住我

到底是为什么分手你很清楚

如可笨到底

但到底还是我

谁人待我好

待我差太清楚

想继续装傻

却又无力受折磨

心里羡慕那些人

盲目到不计后果

我就回去别引出我泪水

尤其明知水瓶座最爱是流泪

若然道别是下一句

可以闭上了你的咀

无谓再会要是再会更加心碎

要是回去没有止痛药水

拿来长岛冰茶换我半晚安睡

十年后或现在失去

反正到最尾也唏嘘

够绝情我都赶我自己出去

犹如最结实的堡垒

原来在逐点崩溃

逐点粉碎

极固执的如我

也会捱不下去

每天扮着幸福

始终有些心虚

如可笨到底

但到底还是我

谁人待我好待我差

太清楚想继续装傻

却又无力受折磨

心里羡慕有些人

盲目到不计后果

我就回去别引出我泪水

尤其明知水瓶座最爱是流泪

若然道别是下一句

可以闭上了你的咀

无谓再会要是再会

更加心碎

要是回去没有止痛药水

拿来长岛冰茶换我半晚安睡

十年后或现在失去

反正到最尾也唏嘘

够绝情我都赶我自己出去

滚！！

2010-09-02T07:30:00.000-07:00

唉~
偶好辛苦啊 ..
多希望从来不认识他。

他好讨人厌！
他好无理取闹！
他好幼稚！
他好不认真！

总而言之就是超讨厌的！
滚蛋啦！

):

与他相识，
算是一场灾难的开始吧~

偶滴人生好惨丫~
被他耍得团团转~

悲 ..

从认识他开始就一直心痛到现在。
偶好无聊 .. =w=

好想叫他滚蛋！
好想警告他！
好想让他滚！！

唉~

怎么每天都看到关于他的踪迹呢？
上fb,
什么之类的。
都会看到他。
夭寿~

偶不上或许就不会看到他了~
他好讨厌！
一看到他就眼晕~!!

手机他找偶，
偶也可以不回~
反正他是知道的~

偶现在已经完全不重要，
或许打从一开始也是呗？
偶好笨~
好白痴丫~

难怪偶滴朋友们都说偶太容易相信别人了~
是真的呗？

唉~

蠢人没药医丫~

有什么办法呢？

讨厌阿~
别再跟其他人说什么nonsense了吧~
偶真滴没有眼睛看了~
滚蛋吧~

偶越看你越不顺眼丫~
唉~

):

******************************************

为什么有的人就是那么贱呢？
死都要玩人 ..
你当偶白痴厚~
=w=

完~

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.
Sign off, 2/9/2010, 10.55 p.m.

Taylor Swift - White Horse (':

2010-08-30T23:20:00.000-07:00

Taylor Swift - White horse.
Sad song which scream my feelings out. (:

Love this song but hate my life.
;)

*Why is everyone like to play at first then end up when someone had really gone then only they asked " Can you give me a chance? I'm sorry .. " *

You played but you want da person to stay no matter how ..
Uhuh ?
Do you think your "sorry" is really that terrific ?
They not really need it don't cha know ?

(:

MV:

The guy : Do you still love me ?
Taylor : Yea ..
The guy : Can you give me another chance ?
Taylor : ..

*Middle of the video*

The guy : Can you give me another chance?
Taylor : No.

* The guy is really stupid. BRAINLESS! :DD GET OUT ! *

Lyrics:
Say you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known

[Chorus]
I'm not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know

[Chorus]
I'm not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees,
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm sooo sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my review mirror disappearing now
And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late
To catch me now

*****************************

Nice song.

Love Taylor Swift. (:

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

Sign off, 31/08/2010. 02.44p.m.

TS + SW again. (:

2010-08-28T07:24:00.000-07:00

* Outfit of da day ~ Ahaha. Weird? *

Went Time square and Sungai wang today ! :D
With 2 senior Mun Yee~
;D

* Time when I'm bored while preparing at my house ~ *

When OMY's house and gather in the morning.
;)

* Too bored inside the bus. *

Went Sungai wang. (:

And there's some retard's keep on calling me non-stop.
Wertaheck ?
I don't even know him.

His voice is really blur and I don't get that language he is talking.
End up my friend told me what he said.

I was like "Wertaheckk I don't even know you. And how da heck you get my num ?"
=w=

Suan ~
Don't wanna let this small case spoiled my mood. :P

We had lunch at T-Bowl !
:DD

So funny eh that place. x)

The table.

The table beside.

*Zoom.*

Da chair.

One more shot !

* Waiting ~ *

Ini tomyam ramen~
Damn HAWTT and SPICY!
O.O!!

* My farrniee face. x) *

* With OMY! I looks retard. :DD *

* Farrniee looking again ~ *

Da Ice cream looks like *tut* ~

Some people bathing ..
I pergi kap kap .. o.o

Afther that went gai gaii for awhile thn Went Time Square lerh.
Almost lost.
x3

Time passed really fast.
And there is kinda bored too. >w<

So we went home around 5+.

* The PERASAN shot in ts . x) *

* The last shot in ts. (: *

So yea. We went home and playing around inside the bus since there is no one's there.
We're lucking !
XD

* My beloved star necklaces. <3>

And of course,
You know I won't be home that early since I gotta chance to go out finally !
xD

We went OMY's house and take photo and play kau kau !

xPP

* Oops!~ :P *

* Guess what's on my head? :P *

* Fat ! x) *

* Like this. (: *

* Listen to your heart. (: *

*Hohoho~ Again ~! I love funny shotsss !*

My day end with a smile and a funny shot. (:

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

Sigh off, 28/08/2010. 11.54p.m.

Hate it.

2010-08-25T22:16:00.000-07:00

Hye there,

I would like to tell you guys that I did SUPEB BADLY in my trial.

GOSHHH !

I think I couldn't get in to the class that I wanted to go anymore.

Super sad.

Cause I heard my friends told me that if really wanna get in to da class.

Science atleast B.

And maths atleast B.

I wanna cry d. T^T

I only get C in my both papers.

I'm really stupid.

Changed my answer always.

Its correct but I changed it to the wrong wn.

T^T

My chinese 1 mark more to get A.

I'm too careless.

Changed the answer.

If not I would get A.

Sighh.

Other papers teacher haven't finish marking.

I hope It would not be too bad.

These weeks and month I will be doing maths and science CRAZYLY cause I'm totally disappointed about my trial.

I do my maths question until half I feel super sad and almost cried.

WTH I did ?

This is the very first time I cry for my results.

I just hate it so so much.

Hoprfully my english paper will get A.

But I think mostly is B.

Paper 1 only get 28. ):

Paper 2 need 40 marks to get A.

which is 75.

Sighh.

Hope I will not fail other subject anymore exp for GEO and maybe also SEJ.

Pray for me.

T^T

-JinggHuann.

xoxo.

Sign Off, 26/8/2010. 1.26p.m.

Sad.

2010-08-25T06:25:00.000-07:00

Hye guys, bad news here.

I'm being no mood as last time, again. (':

Why ?

Maybe cause I'm always thinking back.

My friend scolded me for why am I always saying about the past and all those.

But,

I think you souldn't ask me or even scold me about that,

You should ask yourself what you had did to make me remember it and still in hurt until now. (:

Aren't it ?

No one likes to live in their past memories.

Just that is something bothering.

Hurt, uhuh?

You guys had did somethings which could give me a nightmare unlimitable but FOREVER. (:

Since form 1 until now,

I'm still hurt and will cry for it.

How stupid I am, uhuh?

You guys always say "Don't always talk about that past larh, its over d."

I was thinking "so ? Yea, even its over and had passed long long ago. You guys feel NOTHING but I'm the only stupid and bastart wn whom still will cried while i think of it." (:

Why?

I'm asking a question which is unanswerable.

Since the day you guys did that to me,

I understanded how stupid I am.

I believe in you guys and think that you guys are my everything.

And nothing is more important than you all.

But ..

What I get ?

It has been only a few months,

You guys TOTALLY BROKE MY HEART UNTIL I KEEP CRYING EVERYNIGHT FOR 3 MONTH.

And after that you guys could just come and act nothing and friend back with me.

Uhuh ?

You guys even said that "Its just a game. Nice to play it."

Uhuh ?

Yea, its just a game.

But im sorry to tell that I'm not into this 'game' at all.

I'm just too weak and got no enough energy to play it. (:

So could you guys just get a lil far away from me ?

My result totally dropped like mad because of you guys.

Don't you even wonder why ?

I think im reallt too childish for thinking that ,

"I believe in my friends with full of my heart, No matter that happened, I'll be with them. And I think they would do so. :D"

But,

You guys thought me a lesson .

- Friends is only for you to play. (':

How funny.

Uhuh?

I've be all alone and my whole secandary school like has been destroyed since that.

Funny uhuh?

For me yea.

Today again,

I'm alone again.

Mind started be uncontrolable.

Think of the past.

Heart break once again.

Almost cried.

Friends come and play ard fools with me.

I act with nothing.

The whole form 1 all I learned is.

- Shouldn't so around friends too much, they will scold me.

- Shouldn't think that I'm their friend than i can know their stuff. Hye! I'm being too annoying.

- Shouldn't joke or even talk with friends cause they will scold and ignore me, and I will cry for it.

- Shouldn't cry, even cry, don't let friends knows. Cause they will say im just acting pity.

- Shoudn't talk to anyone in school, cause they will say that Im just acting popular.

- I should just be like a mute always. (:

- I should be a half invisible people which don't let others notice that I'm here.

- I should cry even im in pain.

- I can't tell anything to anyone cause no one will being thre for me.

- I can't be too childish like last time anymore cause it will hurts me more.

- Cant believe in anyone anymore cause everything they said will be a lie.

Concusion :

Dont ever be ANYTHING cause I'm just NOTHING. (:

Itiiz this is what you guys want me to feel and learned?

I get it. (':

So are you guys happy now ?

I guess so.

Even if i death,

No one will cry for me or what.

Only will got people gather and have a party cause IM FINALLY GONE ! ;D

Should I be happy ?

Someone is celebrating cause of me uhuh ?

I think i should.

Even im in pain also cant even tell.

Cried while im typing this.

Sorry for if im too emo and no mood reply.

- JinggHuann.

xoxo.

Sigh off, 25/8/2010. 9.57p.m.

Every heart. (:

2010-08-08T01:33:00.000-07:00

This is a Japanese song which I feel its meaningful while the moment I heard it.
:D

Love the voice and the lyric.
Just so so muchiee.
(:

INUYASHA 'S SONG IS AWESOME! :DD

Lyrics:
ikutsu namida wo nagashitara
Every Heart sunao ni nareru darou
dare ni omoi wo tsutaetara
Every Heart kokoro mitasareru no darou
nagai nagai yoru ni obieteita
tooi hoshi ni inotteta
meguru meguru toki no naka de
bokutachi wa ai wo sagashiteiru
tsuyoku tsuyoku naritai kara
kyou mo takai sora miageteiru
donna egao ni deaetara
Every Heart yume ni fumidaseru no
hito wa kanashimi no mukou ni
Every Heart shiawase ukabete nemuru
itsuka itsuka subete no tamashii ga
yasuraka ni nareru you ni
meguru meguru toki no naka de
bokutachi wa ikite nanika wo shiru
toki ni warai sukoshi naite
kyou mo mata aruki tsudzukete yuku
osanai kioku no katasumi ni
atataka na basho ga aru so sweet
hoshitachi ga hanasu mirai wa
itsumo kagayaiteita so shine
meguru meguru toki no naka de
bokutachi wa ai wo sagashiteiru
tsuyoku tsuyoku naritai kara
kyou mo takai sora miageteiru
meguru meguru toki no naka de
bokutachi wa ikite nanika wo shiru
toki ni warai sukoshi naite
kyou mo mata aruki tsudzukete yuku

English translation :

How many tears must be shed
Every Heart, Before we can become honest?
To whom must we proclaim our feelings
Every Heart, So that we can no longer feel loneliness?
I was frightened by the long, long nights
I prayed to the distant stars
Round and round in looping time
We are searching for love
For we want to grow stronger and stronger
We still look up to the high skies today

What kind of smile must we come across
Every heart, Before we can take a step towards our dreams?
A person in the face of sadness
Every Heart, His happiness drifts in slumber
Someday, someday, may all souls
Find true peace
Round and round in looping time
We live and come to understand things
At times laughing, sometimes crying
We will continue to walk again today
In the corners of my childhood memories
There is a warm place, So Sweet
Where the stars talk of a future
That will always sparkle, So Shine
Round and round in looping time
We are searching for love
For we want to grow stronger and stronger
We still look up to the high skies today
Round and round in looping time
We live and come to understand things
At times laughing, sometimes crying,
We will continue to walk again today

*****************************

Hearing this song again and again.
Maybe everything is not that important anymore.
Since my fate and my love had fade away.
(:

Now days I don't know why I will cry without reason.
Thinking back the old old history of mine.
Its full of dust and deeply hurt inside it.
And I keep in blaming myself for everything.
Maybe,
Let everything and everyone even myself also blaming my own will be the best way.
(:

Every heart,
Could be broken at once but end up will healed back but its not original anymore.
Its full of wound and afraid of everyone.

"Think back from the past.
Isn't I'm the happiest girl in the world which I think I really am ?
For everything, I could just face it with a smile without worried.
But,
Why am I so weak right now ?"

Cause, You had grow by the time passed by and everything that happened around you. (:

I used to be emo and all alone.
Which I don't really notice it that I was that lonely and sad.
Until my friend came and asked me ,
"Jing Huan, Why are you alone ?"
By that time she asked,
I looked around me,
And yea, No one is beside me, and I'm just all alone. Walking and standing like a fool.
I felt a suddenly shocked and yet, I'm sad.

I wonder,
Why is everybody are with their friends But I'm just so far away from them?
It seems like it happened everyday.
I keep my mind inside a deep place inside my heart. Which no one will notice it.

I seldom talk to those friends which I not really close with or the friends that having their own time.
They asked me,
"Why are you so quite ?"
I was shocked and wondering,
* Am I .. ?*
I'm just don't wanna disturb them that much.

Some of them even think that I'm a lcly person.
Well, I'm not. You believe or not.

Everything starts with a smile and a Hi.
But end with a tears and a Bye.
Agree ? (:

I knew everyone got their own way to go,
So I would respect their choice and follow.

I knew everything will be end by the time had comes,
So I would get ready for a "Goodbye" and told myself that you'll go.

I do not blame at anyone cause they might had their own thinking,
No matter that's right or wrong.

Some people choose to said a "Nevermind" even when they are deeply madly in hurt.
But some people choose to scold or even hit the person that had hurt him.

Well,
Different people, different act.

The people that you see her smiling and laughing like mad in school and outside,
Maybe might be the person that crying all alone over the night passed through.

The person that you see them smoking and fighting always,
He is not bad, He is just trying to find a way to release the streets of him,
And let go everything by himself.
He just wanna take it all by himself.

The person that you see them were kind and understanding you always,
You might don't know how much they hurt during their pass.
Because they understand the pain that they had been through,
Therefore they knew the problem and will tried to not hurt anyone.

Think before you blame,
Understand before you scold,
Check before you ask.

Because you might don't know how you might hurts that person with a single word.

Just a word,
Could made their heart broken.

You might think its just nothing and normal.
But for them,
It doesn't seems normal at all.

The words that you said,
Truly deeply madly hurts them.
They will never tell you and will keep it inside.

So,
Tried to wonder,
If someone that you love or someone is important for you said this to you,
How do you feel ?

Think before you said the word.

(:

Every heart is weak and broken.
Therefore,
We must be careful for every lil move we made,
And every single word we said.

Think back,
How many person you had hurt?

You might feel sorry but its useless.
There will still be a wound inside their hearts.
All you can do is just DO NOT REPEAT IT.

(:

Jia You everyone. (:

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.
8/8/2010, 05.07p.m. Sign Off.

♥ Listen To Your Heart. (:

2010-07-19T19:09:00.000-07:00

Hye everyone,
Sorry was missing for so long cause no mood and i fall a sick. ):

Anyway,
There is a song name "Listen To Your Heart" by DHT.
Slow version damn nice.
And it reminds me of something .. makes me feel kinda confusing. Sighh.
Wondering had I done wrong ?
What's wrong with me ?
Haixzz ..

Video here.
Love da bluee heartiee~
It seems meaning full *for me*. (:

Lyrics :

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yeah.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems, the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

And there are voices that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Listen to your heart, mm-mmmmmm

I don't know where you're going and I don't know why, but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.

*****************************************

* I'm suffering too, don't you know that ? *

The song is too nice and I keep hearing again and again for the whole day without feeling boring.
(:
Yea,
I love it so why is the reason I feel that's bored? ;)

Bla bla bla ~

BuhhBaii. (:

- JinggHuann

xoxo.
Sigh Off, 2.05p.m , 20 July 2010.

Why do you appear in my dreams ..?

2010-07-03T22:23:00.000-07:00

Once again ..
You appear in my dreams ..
Why?
I wonder ..
Did I think of you ?
Did I missed you ?
I don't know ..
I think I did ?

If not how come you will appear in my dreams ?
And this is not the first time ..

After when I woke up ..
There are tears on my face ..
I don't know why ..

After awake ..
I cried again ..
I don't know how long I did cried ..
Just know it aren't a short time ..
My eyes are hurt ..

I wonder my mind are empty isn't it ..?
Its blank isn't it ..?
But why is my tears keep on running down without control ..?
I can't stop my tears and i don't know why ..

Don't feel lyk thinking anymore ..

My eyes pain da whole day ..
Hearing da rain drops dik dik dak dak ..
And the lighting kong long kong long ..
Dunno why feel more sad ..
Cried lyk never before ..

Dunno what am i typing ..
All nonsense ..
Sighh ..

BuhhBaii ..

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.
Sigh off, 14/07/2010 , 09.43p.m.

7/2/2010 ...

2010-07-02T08:21:00.000-07:00

My leg is bleeding ..
And paining ..
why?
My mummy beat me just now ..
Which I really dunno why she beat for ..

I didn't done anything ..
Just lying on my bed ..
She came in ..
Scold me cause of nonsense ..
Then beat ..
And she asked me to stop acting that im sick this and that ..
Wertta ..?
I din even act wookay?
I just dunno wert she is thinking ..
No mood to think of it ..

Only one time she beat and it could made my leg bleed ..
I dk wert is going on ..
Just grap my phone and get out of da room ..
Since she is going to sleep ..
Just wanna go to a place which far away from her so that I will not get in trouble anytime ..

I do not cry even she beat me that hard ..
But only my heart ..
I don't know why everytime also I'm the only one to kena by her even others done wrong ..
Why?
Why itiiz so unfair ? I asked ..
*The world ain't fair at first ..*
Thats what she told me ..
Those bull shit ..

I didn't even blame her ..
But she keep on blaming me cause of some small problem and beat me until like im a mad dog for her ..

I started wondering did she treat me as a human before?
I dk ..
Wert a stupid question ..

She is such a crazy woman ..
And yea ..
even herself admit it ..

Since when I'm small ..
She started beating me until now ..
But during when im young it more worst ..
But I didn't blame her ..

Since she is my only mother?
yea ..

And I do not cry ..
Since its just useless ..
Btw,
You just can't imagine how horrible my life is when I'm small ..

And goodness ..
Its better now But only sometimes ..

The wound is still paining ..
But it seems nothing for me but only the pain ..

*I do not cry even my mother beat me that hard ..
But only for just a single word you said .. *

The blood comes out from my skin ..
nothing more to feel but only the pain ..

I admit that I'm not good enough for you ..
But does anyone is perfect ?
No right?
So why are you doing this for ?
I wonder ..

End up .. no more question ..
I won't ask anymore ..
I won't say it out anymore ..
And won't do anything anymore ..
Just leave my soul to bleed ..
I have to ?

Since its just super useless to let her know all these bull shit ..

Its pain for me so what ?
Does who really blardy cares about it ?
No right?
So just shuddup ..

I don't even wertaheck am i typing ..
Sorry for all da rude typing ..

BuhhBaii ...

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

Sigh off, 02/07/2010 , 11.25 p.m.

3rd Day ..

2010-06-26T20:33:00.001-07:00

This is the 3rd day i'm in sick ..

sighh ..

Head always burning like fire ..

damn hot ..

boring and cant do anything else ..

Grrr ..!!

And it makes me think even more ..

Lmaoo ..

I think tomorrow im not going to school ..

maybe ..?

The 3rd day i feel better ..

Maybe ..?

Hopefully i could get well ..

cause i'm really suffer for da sickness ..

Buhhbaii ..

-JinggHuann.

xoxo.

Sigh off, 27/06/2010, 11.42 a.m.

JinggHuann had fall to sickness .. ):

2010-06-25T02:14:00.001-07:00

I fall a sick .. ):

Damn suffer ..

Headache like hell ..

And it hot like im inside a fire place ..

Some cold stuff are needed for me ..

Today at school kena force to drink cold water ..

Hummpp ..

da weather dunno why itiiz so cooling today ..

makes me water become cold water ..

I've no choice ..

to drink it all ..

I think thats why it went worse ..

Hummpp ...

Bad weather!

>w<

Today went home feel like pengsan ..

faster take a bath ..

do all my work ..

And turn on my com ..

Later on i went to my room ..

actually im going to take some med ..

but ..

end up ..

i fall asleep ..

>x<

Grrr ..

wake up ..

feel kinda better ..

and my whole body is like burning ..

cause i sleep without turning on da fan and i put al da pillows uppon my head and body ..

LOL. >x<

Tot i was okay ..

but ..

its still worst at the end ..

Head damn hot ..

went kitchen and take some ice put on my head ..

feel okok ..

but after taking off ..

worst again .. ):

Very weak arhh ..

Wert should i do ?

Grr ..!

My untiee still so heartless keep on asking me to do da house work today ..

I went into da room and lock the door and dont care ni ..

stupid wn .. =w=

I feel like copping off my head !!

Grr.. !!

I hate to be sick ..

When i wanna go take some med ..

look on the table ..

loads of med there ..

I was like "HUH??!! Which one to take huh?? "

Awww..

later take wrong lagi worst ..

Sighh ..

i just take some which i think i know wert itiiz for ..

others ..

urmm ..

haixz..

I feel like vomiting ..

-JinggHuann.

xoxo.

sigh off, 25/06/2010, 05.33 p.m.

I hate today .. 19062010 ..

2010-06-19T09:07:00.000-07:00

* Urmm ..~
Its still the same ..
How stupid I'm to hope that it could be different ..?
I'm the only one who wants myself to be happy and noticeable ..?
Ahaha.. How stupid ..
Even myself said so .. *

Urmm ~
My birthday is just another ordinary day for me.
Sighh.
Kinda sad and disappointed.

But ..
Feel surprised of something. :DD
Thought that this day I will be alone but Im not.
Get loads of wished.
Over 100++ I guess ..?
Lazy count. x)

Ahahaha.
And feel surprised that someone will said Happy Birthdayy to me.
Thought he will forget when is my day ..
Kekex.

Thanks~ :D

Others..
Is I get a kiss from a cutiee babyy~~ :DD
She is so so cute~
Ahahah.
Playing with me and mua phone hanger ~
And keep on saying "miaoo meoww" ..
Cause she saw a cat .. and ngam ngam my phone hanger there is a cutiee cat too.
Ahaha~

Cute right? :DD

And when I go ..
She kissed me ~
Awww~~

Ahahaha.
Happiee~~ :DD

Well ,
Still the same I didn't get any present during my birthday.
LOL.
Sighh ..
Kinda jealous of others ..

Ahaha.

I think I got .. but only 1 ..?
(:

Urmm~
Well,
I birthday ..

- No friends ..
- No fun ..
- No outings ..
- No present ..
- No cake ..

*GOT BOREDNESS
*GOT STUPIDNESS
*GOT YAWN-NESS

LOL!

Worse stupid birthday.. (:

Just because of the wedding then i cant go out ..
Stay at home got NOTHING TO DO ALSO CANNOT GO ..
=.=

Oh you're really 'kind' enough ... =.=

Btw,
Thanks for those who wished me ~ :DD

- JinggHuann .
xoxo .
Sign Off 20/06/2010, 12.21 a.m.

16062010.

2010-06-16T06:22:00.000-07:00

* Memories .. ~ (: *

Today did went Mid Valley with Joey Fong and Ooi Mun Yee ~

Ahahaha.

Thanks for the present my dear. ;)

wearing heels so my leg damn pain when i come back. >w<

But btw, Had fun. (:

Today im too bored so i take picture of my own since Joey woke up so "early" :P

Hehehehe.

All picture had uploaded in my facebook.

Album "miee~" * for SS. x3 *

Album "My beloved one. " * For me and my friends. (: *

Well ..

Thank you my korr~

He cheer me up with doing nothing but talking with me.

Ahahaha.

Love him ~ (:

*as a bro* :DD

Btw,

feel kinda sad cause he is going back to Taiwan after my birthday.

Which is 20th of June. ):

Sighh~

Having an bad and good time today. (:

Good things cause my friends hang out with me and my korr come and chat with me.

Bad things are something.

And da something is something. (:

*LAMEE!!* >w<

Hope after 3 days i wont be alone.

Btw i knew i will be alone. (:

Hmm ..~

Erumm ..~

Urmm ..~

Will see.

Kakax~

Urmm~

Today not really fun but feel happy with them.

Thanks yeaa~

Anyway,

I did take some picture of the night sky when im bored.

* Not for today's one. (: *

Urmm~~

The night sky is just so lonely without the stars ..

With the weak light,

It couldn't help anything to fill up the loneliness of the sky ..

There is only one thing can do it ..

Its ..

The star .. ~

- JinggHuann

Hye mua story ends here.

BuhhBaii~

* I think its the end .. ): *

- JinggHuann.

xoxo.

Sign off 16/06/2010, 10.07 p.m.

Miaoo meoww~ x3

2010-06-13T08:51:00.000-07:00

* I'm staring at you ~~ Bluekk~! :P *

Went genting with my family. (:

And During concert night they all went for the concert and left me and my sister.
We went shopping for a little while~

And I did bought my beloved miaoo meoww phone hanger~
:DD

Cuddly cat 2 in 1,
And Crystal cat.
Total 3.
:DD

After buying it we walk for while then went back to the hotel.
And I got nothing better to do,
But for taking picture for my "Lovely Babiees~" :DD

* Here its~! My cuddly cat~~ ;DD *

* My crystal cat~ :DD *

* One black and one white~ :P *

* Take 2 ~ *

*Kar chart~ *

* Silly looking~ =X *

* Blurr~~ @w@ *

* Lalala~ :P *

* Wootxz~ :DD *

* Love it so so muchiee~ *

* Both of it~! ;DD *

And here its,
What my sister bought.

* Tarr dengg~ *

* The white one is mine and the black one might be hers. x) *

* Smile and take 1~ *

* I wonder what looking itiiz.. >w< *

*Bu buu .. ~*

* The reflection of the mirror forms a love shape~ ♥ *

* Super weird looking with da love shape. )x *

*My right hand forms it~! ♥ *

* Stupid face~ x) *

*Lu lu lu lu lu ~~ *

* Bu bu bu bu bu~~ *

* Peace ~ *

(My hair sucks. >w<)

*Karr chart~ *

*I love this so so muchiee~~ ♥ *

* And yea. Behind the bear its my sister. Ooi Shu Huan~! :DD *

* Huggieexz~ :P *

* I was trying to take my sister's picture. ~w~ *

* Another silly face again~ *

Ahaha.
Sorry for too many SS picture. =X

Urmm.. We went back the next day morning.
And im not really feel well cause of the pressure problem.
Grrr~!

>w< Btw, Now I'm finally back. ;DD

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

Sign off 14/06/2010 , 12.55 a.m.

Westlife - I don't wanna finght

2010-06-11T09:45:00.000-07:00

Hye there,
Here's another Westlife song im gonna post again.
And yea, you know.
I love their song.
(:

Name "I don't wanna fight".

And people, you know,
The lyrics could help me scream my feelings out.
Just for a lil part of it but not all. (:

Lyrics:

I can't sleep,
everything i ever knew,
It's a lie,
without you,

I can't breathe,
when my heart is broke in two,
There's no beat,
without you,

You're not gone,
but you're not here,
It's that's the way it seems tonight,
If we could try to end these wars,
I know that we can make it right,
cause baby,

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this loneliness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, I'm hoping we can start tonight,
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more,

How can I leave,
when everything that I adore,
and everything I'm living for,
Girl, it's in you,

I can't dream,
sleepless nights have got me bad,
The only dream i ever had,
is being with you,

I know that we can make it right,
It's gonna take a little time,

Lets not leave ourselves
with no way out,
lets not cross that line,(that line)

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this loneliness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, I'm hoping we can start tonight,
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more,

Remember that i made a vow,
that i would never let you go,
I meant it then, I mean it now,
and i want to tell you so,

I don't wanna fight no more, (oh no)
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, I'm hoping we can start tonight,
(can we start)
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more...

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were
fighting for, (oh yeah)
and this loneliness that's in my heart,
(my heart)
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
(I'm hoping)
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more.......

It's all a lie,
Without you,
without you......

****************************

Well well well,
No story to type.
Cause seems it was just craps.
And I don't wanna do the stupid move anymore.
Since I'm really stupid enough ..
(':

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

Sign off 12/06/2010, 12.50a.m.

♥ 11062010

2010-06-11T06:48:00.000-07:00

* Ngek ngekk~ :P *

Had a nice day with Ooi Mun Yee, Another Mun Yee and her sista. :DD

Woke up during the early morning which it 9am.
Kekex.
Since the first time i woke so early (For me) during holidays. x)
Cause need to go Mun Yee's house at 10am.
I leave 1 hours for myself to prepare.

Well,
I'm speed. :D
45 min I'm done~ ;DD
Kekex.

Went to her house which is at my neighbor court - court 9
(:

Went there and meet her.
Did wear my lens there.
And its my first time to wear lens until the tears running down ..
And i don't know the reason why.
Maybe cause long time din wear d.
So thats why ..

Btw,
I feel its weird ..
>w<

We need to wait for another Mun Yee come so Im bored.
I SS there. >x

* Imma in Purple today~ (: *

* Blue lens. (: *

* Blinky Blink~ *

After we reach sunway.
We did bought the movie ticket ,
After that,
We went for our lunch. (:

* Buah buah buah~~ :P *

* Yum yum~ ;P *

We did watch the movie "Karate kids"
Whoau~ I love this movie~ :DD
But ..
Too scary for me .. >w<

After that we went gai gaii for awhile.
Then I taken a picture of them.
Buahaha! :P

*Another Mun Yee, Her sista and Ooi Mun Yee. :DD *

( Pei Sian run away~! Grr~! >x< )

Aku suka SS? :P

Well,
I bet every gurls does so.
^~^

*After the movie~ ;DD *

* Like this~ :P *

* Urmm .. ~~ *

* (: *

* Karr Charr~ xPP *

Btw,
Went back at 7++
Reach home at 8 ++
Had a nice day.

Thanks for everything.
Thank you everyone.
:D

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

Sign off at 11/06/2010 , 10.57p.m.

My stupidness ..

2010-06-02T03:22:00.000-07:00

*I love you ..
Don't you know that ..?*

Sighh..

I think i still couldn't let go ..

Just now ter-saw his picture ..

just for a few minutes ..

My heart breaks like hell ..

tears almost fall ..

but my friends are with me so i holding it ..

Feel so damn hurt ..

Even exam also thinking of him ..

WTH?

Haixz..

People doing their exam ..

And i'm thinking of you until myself cried ..

without people knowing ..

Sighh.

I hate it ..

I hate myself ..

Haixz..

Why larh?

Why must it be like this ..?

I don't even know what's happening to me ..

I running away from home ..

Scared to saw my phone ..

and my everything and even my memory , too.

It hurts me loads ..

I don't know why itiiz so hurt ..

Really ..

I wanna know what's happening to me ..

Sighh ..

I think this is the first time i felt in this way ?

Oh how stupid ..

haixz..

我爱的人，不是爱我的人。
他心里的每一寸, 装满的 .. 都是另一个人 .. )':

*The one whom I love, Ain't the one who loves me.

Everything that in his mind is only her .. ?*

I think ..

He should have a better life barh ..

If its without me ..

It will be the best ..

So ..

I think ..

I can't even do anything ..

Just hope he will be happy always ..

prayed for him ..

Sighh ..

No matter how hurt I am ..

Tears run down easily ..
Really don't know what im feeling ..

It cold makes my mind falling apart ..

What's wrong with me?

My friend asked me

"eh? Then you just want it to be like this? Don't wanna ask him ?"

Sighh..

I had no right to say it anymore ..

I think ?

)':

I think i couldn't stand anymore if one I saw him ..

i think my tears will falling apart in front of him ..

really ..

cannot tahan anymore..

I'm running away from he truth ..

Isn't me?

Hurt and emo like hell ..

But ..

still ...

Nevermind ..

I think im the only one whom can been blame ..

I'm really ................

I'm alive,

But im losing all my drive ..

Isn't me?

I don't care how hurt i am ..

just as long as you're happy ..

don't mind ..

　Hope ..

so?

Bla bla bla.
Im typing craps again ..
Sighh..

BuhhBaii ..

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

Sighh ...

2010-05-31T23:15:00.000-07:00

* Things pass by too fast ..
Which I can't really control it ..
I think its better to let it go .. )': *

Yesterday night ..
I think i had realize ..
Sighh ..

Really didn't notice how hurt I'm until others mention it ..
Oh how stupid ..

I am always?

I really don't know ..
I think ..?

I guess i really knew it but just keep on running away from the truth ..
Acting happy ,
Pretending nothing happen is what I did always .

When others ask me ,
"Then you wanna let it be ?"
"You really want it to be like this ?"
"I don't understand why .. why he xxxxxxx but you still xxxxxxx .. "
And bla bla bla ...

I cried when he asked ..
I scream in my heart
"I DONT WANT IT TO BE LIKE THIS!!!! But what can i do ? "

Im really suffer ..
I close my ears and try my hardest to forget and stop thinking about it ..
However ..

He is still the only thing in my mind ..

My tears drop without control ..

When it dropped ..
I scolded myself "WHY THE HELL ARE YOU CRYING OOI JING HUAN??!!"

I dunno ....

Haixz..

Really dunno ...

I dk wert is happened with me ..
And I dunno what's wrong with myself ..

I hate myself ..........

Yea.
I hate the "why" I asked always ..
cause ..
The "why" is just craps without a reason while am i asking ..

So stop asking why cause nobody will ever answer ..

Sighh..

Even exam also I can't really pay 100% attention in it ..

Haixz..

I don't think i'm gonna get a good result on this terms ..
God bless me ?

I'm really annoying sometimes I knew it ..
But ..

I don't know what to say ...

Didn't study during this terms exam ..
Sighh ..
I wonder what's wrong ..

Can't even study ..

Grrr....!!

Nevermind ..
Sighh..
everything just let it be ..
While i really cannot do anything ..
Even I did so ..
Its just useless ..
I knew it ..

I will make it up to you ..
Follow the way you wanna be ..

Won't do anything ..
anymore ..

Cause I'm really tired ..
Almost can be death in anytime ..

All the friends are telling me *Something*..
Just that I don't believe it ..
Enen ..
I'm stupid aren't me ?

I'm too stupid to believe that the miracle's will happen ..

After all ..
I'm still believing ..

Maybe even now , too .

I'm tired of myself ..
Its enough to think of nonsense ..
Its enough to been hurt ..
Its enough to let my tears drop again.

Sighh.
I wonder can I do it ?

Btw,
Time to stop the nonsense ..
Haixz..

BuhhBaii..

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

Craps post. Don't read it ...

2010-05-27T23:25:00.000-07:00

The original of the song. (:

主唱∶林峯
作曲∶邓智伟
填词∶张美贤
编曲：Johnny Yim
监制：邓智伟

记得当时谁路过　秒针忽然停顿过
气温湿度曾骤变太多
记忆不停重叠过　你的表情提示过
爱的　可能是我

想法太乱　幻觉太多
疑虑很大　直到说不清楚
心算太慢　但仍然算错
找对人　偏错过

＊直到开始想喜欢我　直到终於不喜欢我
　直到碰上一个　逃避一个
　追不上　躲不过
　直到开始找不到我　直到终於不想找我
　直到你擦身过　才认得我
　彼此也在折磨　像当初＊

想法太乱　直觉对麼
疑虑很大　直到爱不清楚
当这世上　全怀疑我错
总有人　相信我

*************************

心不知道怎么了．．
好痛．．

因为一些话吧．．

好累．．

不明白．．

或许我很清楚．．
只是一直在逃避．．

由得我呗．．

我很笨丫．．
真得很笨．．

每个人都在骂我．．
说我很笨．．
很傻．．
诸如此类的．．

我承认．．

嗯嗯．．
就这样吧．．

让那个伤口永远都不要痊愈．．
让那个痛永远都不要停止．．
就让我．．
永远的痛苦下去吧．．

都是我自找的．．
我自己活该．．

与其他人无关．．

值得与不值得．．
我都不管。

很无聊吧？
很烦人吧？

嗯。
很好。

那就丢下我吧．．

让我自己一个人就可以了．．．．．．．

我想我已经习惯了吧．．．

从小到大．．

有几个人是真心对我的呢？．．

应该说是没有吧．．

旧连亲生的父母也一样．．．

那．．
恐怖的回忆．．

我已经不像在记起了．．．．．

恩。
是够了。

应该停了。

你走了。
远了。

我还笑着，
但心，
在淌着血。

嗯嗯。
没人看得见吧？

那些痛就有我自己一个人承担就好。

我想，
每个人都应该有自己的痛吧？

而我的痛．．
太过沉重了．．．．

不想增添别人的痛。
那太辛苦了。

我，
太自私了。。

我很讨厌我自己。
真的。

不知道为什么，
也不知道从几时开始。

我很讨厌我自己．．．

觉得自己很讨厌。

很讨厌。

嗯。
我想那应该是导致每个人都喜欢把我耍得团团转的原因呗？

哈。

好白痴．．

我在想．．
这些年来．．
我到底是怎么过的？

我的痛，
没人懂。

我也不想让人知道。

我的泪，
没停过。

没有人知道．．
我的心到底有多痛吧？

嗯嗯。
那就等有一天我死了，
想看的话就把它掏出来看。

　你们会吓死．．．

哈．．

我想最近的我心脏痛也是因为如此吧？．．

听说，
哭得太多．．
眼泪会在心脏那里穿个洞．．

那个洞，
那个伤，
永远都不会愈合。

而且会一直发作。

直到那个人离去的那一天．．．．．

嗯嗯。
或许我是得了那个病吧．．

或许是内伤吧．．

因为每次我哭，
都没声音．．

是我硬把自己逼成这样的．．．

不要问我为什么．．．．．．．

从很小就开始了吧？
嗯嗯。

不知道是几时的事，
每当自己伤心的时候，
都会笑着，
让全世界的人都知道我很开心。

无论我有多么心痛也好，
我也会装的很开心。
很疯狂。
很颠。

演了好多年，
面具带了好多年。

我想，
已经没有办法再把它脱下来了吧？

嗯嗯。
就这样吧。

让我一直这样子下去。

我活该．．．

自己找的．．．

嗯嗯。
就让我永远这样下去吧．．．

反正，
我也已经不重要了．．．

梦醒了，
才发现，
原来，
自己就连叫你的资格都已经没有了．．．．

觉得自己在打废话。
很讨厌自己．．．．．．

算了吧．．．

白白。

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

直到你不找我 ( Until you don't find me anymore. )

2010-05-27T22:37:00.000-07:00

*My very first time to wear a contact lens. Looks okay? *

* It might looks scary i know right? =X *

Urmm..~

My family is watch an Hong Kong drama.

And the opening damn nice.

Ahaha.

But its in Cantonese. =X

Btw,

Will try my best to translate yea.

主唱︰林峯 (Raymond Lam) ♥

作曲︰邓智伟
填词︰张美贤

歌词：

记得当时谁路过　秒针忽然停顿过

气温湿度曾骤变太多

记忆不停重叠过　你的表情提示过

爱的　可能是我

想法太乱　幻觉太多

疑虑很大　直到说不清楚

心算太慢　但仍然算错

找对人　偏错过

直到开始找不到我　直到终於不想找我

直到你擦身过　才认得我

彼此也在折磨　像当初

Translation.

记得当时谁路过　秒针忽然停顿过

Still remember who passed by that time,

The second hand stopped in a sudden.

气温湿度曾骤变太多

The humidity of temperature gathered too much before.

记忆不停重叠过　你的表情提示过

Those memories keep on repeating,

And your emotion showed before ..

爱的　可能是我

The one who you love,

Maybe .. it would be me ..

想法太乱　幻觉太多

Thinking too confused ,

Hallucination too much ..

疑虑很大　直到说不清楚

Too qualm,

Until it could not said it out clearly.

心算太慢　但仍然算错

Mental arithmetic too slow for counting,

But still ..

End up the answer is wrong.

找对人　偏错过

Found the right one.

But miss it.

直到开始找不到我　直到终於不想找我

Until you started cannot find me,

Until end up you don't wanna find me anymore ..

直到你擦身过　才认得我

Until you walked passed ..

Only you could recognize that it was me ..

彼此也在折磨　像当初

Both of us was suffer, too.

Just like ..

At the outset ..

****************************

Grrr~

I don't know what am i translating.

It seems sucks.

LOL!

Sighh.

Btw,

Still improving.

**************************

Btw,

Exam is around the corner.

But I'm still online everyday.

Lmaoo.

Cause since when im small until now,

Before exam all i didn't study one..

Can said that I don't touch the book even once.

Just read a bit at school then go sit for exam d.

Exam my UPSR I did so.

LOL.

But only get 2A. Aiks. >w<

Urmm..

Who got form1 and form 2's notes?

For all those important subject?

Mind borrow? >x<

I need to study for it.

Cause since this terms mostly come out form 1 & 2 ..

Grrr...

How I hope I could just ...

Nowdays my friends all less online cause they need to study.

Lols.

Semangat.

It makes me feel that im so so so so so lazy..

Haixz..

Wertodo?

Anyway,

I did studied MATH!

Which is my fav subject~

And next one is SCIENCE!

My second fav subject.

And GEO too.

CHINESE!

:DD

Khb... ):

Sej.. ):

English and bm hmm..

Trying to improve?

>x<

Lalala~

I don't feel like I will did great during this term ..

Don't know why..

Anyway.

Wish me good luck.

And who can gimme come idea for My sejarah folio?

I haven't even start yet .. !!

>_<"!!

And this is my very first time to blog for EXAM.

Just notice while im typing it.

LOL.

And hope I could faster get in my study mood.

Cause of some reason I cannot study barrh ..

Bla bla bla~

Don't wanna talk about it..

Just don't know how to say..

Now days my mood was like ...

.____.

I could just cry very kau just for a sudden ..

Keisaoo right?

But its cause of some reason, too.

And I'm trying to make myself feel happy.

Btw,

I work hard for it.

Hopefully I could do so.

* The sky is alone without stars.

And me is alone with you .. *

Sighh.

Time to ciaoo.

- JinggHuann.

xoxo.

* Star freak~ (: *

爱上你 Loved you - By2 (:

2010-05-24T06:21:00.000-07:00

* Miaoo Meoww Jingg. :) *

Grr..
My hand don't know why feel damn pain ..
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Lyrics:

什么都不要懂只想继续做梦
害怕醒来以后握不住你的手
是谁太不成熟没体谅彼此感受
我不停寻找着理由解释分手

心好空像没温度的气球
我的灵魂困在回忆中动也不能动

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受
噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
可惜你永远都不会懂

什么都不要懂只想继续做梦
害怕醒来以后握不住你的手
如果同一秒钟你也想起了我
心只要能微微颤抖就已足够

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受
噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
或许我永远都看不透

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
伤心快乐在回忆中反复的交错
噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
可惜你永远都不会懂

放心我还会好好的过

Translation.

什么都不要懂只想继续做梦

I don't wanna know anything,
Just wanna keep it inside my dream.

害怕醒来以后握不住你的手

Cause I'm afraid that after when I'm awake,
I couldn't hold your hand.

是谁太不成熟没体谅彼此感受

Who is the one whom not mature enough,
Didn't even care the feelings of each others.

我不停寻找着理由解释分手

I keep on finding something,
For explaining the reason of break up.

心好空像没温度的气球

My heart is empty,
Just as the balloon which without the warmness.

我的灵魂困在回忆中动也不能动

My soul being locked inside with those memories,
Can even made a move.

* 爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂

Loved you don't need any reason,
Don't you understand ..?

可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受

But thinking of it are even more suffer then let go.

噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落

Oh~ Love made my tears lost control whenever I think of you.

可惜你永远都不会懂

But,
You'll never understand.

什么都不要懂只想继续做梦

I don't wanna know anything,
Just wanna keep it inside my dream.

害怕醒来以后握不住你的手

Cause I'm afraid that after when I'm awake,
I couldn't hold your hand.

如果同一秒钟你也想起了我

If,
During the same second,
When I think of you,
You're thinking of me too.

心只要能微微颤抖就已足够

Just a little connection of the heart,
Than it's more then enough.

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂

Loved you don't need any reason,
Don't you understand ..?

可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受

But thinking of it are even more suffer then let go.

噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落

Oh~ Love made my tears lost control whenever I think of you.

或许我永远都看不透

Maybe,
I wouldn't see it thought, forever.

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂

Loved you don't need any reason,
Don't you understand ..?

伤心快乐在回忆中反复的交错

Sadness and happiness,
Both are inside the memories,
Keep on confusing.

噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落

Oh~ Love made my tears lost control whenever I think of you.

可惜你永远都不会懂

But,
You'll never understand.

放心我还会好好的过

Don't need to worry,
I'll be okay.

(:

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

It Ends Tonight - All American Rejects.

2010-05-23T23:54:00.000-07:00

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I cant explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I dont want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe its best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I cant explain what you cant explain.
You're finding things that you didnt know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe its best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

[Chorus]
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
Its too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now Im on my own side
Its better than being on your side
Its my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
Its too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
Its too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight,
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

************************

How I wish ..
If i could die ..
And everyone will forget about the though of me with them ..

So that I could just go without worry about everyone ..
I don't want everyone to cry for me ..
I rather you guys just forget me ..
In your memory inside the though of mine is empty ..
I rather hurt myself then to made you all cry ..

But maybe I'm just too perasan barrh ..
Who will cry for me ..?
Ha ..
Stupid ..

Don't know since when ..
I've got this kinda of thinking ..
Maybe there's too much hurt inside of me ..
Which I couldn't speak out ..
For what I've been ..
For who I know ..
For who had hurts me but they don't know ..

Yea.
I'm the kind of person which get hurt easily ..
But end up those hurts end with a "Nevermind" .
Even I really mind about it.

You may don't know every little things that you do ..
How hurt itiiz for me ..
You may just think that was just a simply word ..
Which you speak it out without any meant ..
But it do hurts me ..

But you don't know ..

I cried with no sounds ..
But full of sadness tears ..
And full of fears ..

I do knew the truth at first ..
But I'm still stupid like hell fall in it ..
End up it hurts me loads ..
But I'm still couldn't wake up from it ..

I knew I'm stupid ..

Sigh ..

Now days the wound keep on paining ..
I think its cause of the sadness of mine ..
It pain until i almost can't breath ..
I could hardly breath ..
Nearly death ..

But I won't show the emotion no matter what ..
Don't want anybody to worry about it ..
Erumm..
Or..
Should I say ..
There is no one will worry about it .. ?
Scared to know the truth so that hurts me loads so that's why I won't show it .. ?

Ha..

But I would like to know the truth if you feel free telling ..

I will hear it gracefully.
(:

I'm smiling everyday,
And yea.
Maybe some of you guys knew that it ain't true ..

But still ..
Enen..
You know me.
(:

To be continue ..

有一种爱叫做放手 (:

2010-05-23T02:13:00.000-07:00

如果两个人的天堂
象是温馨的墙
囚禁你的梦想
幸福是否象是一扇铁窗
候鸟失去了南方

如果你对天空向往
渴望一双翅膀
放手让你飞翔
你的羽翼不该伴随玫瑰
听从凋谢的时光

浪漫如果变成了牵绊
我愿为你选择回到孤单
缠绵如果变成了锁链
抛开诺言

有一种爱叫做放手
为爱放弃天长地久
我们相守若让你付出所有
让真爱带我走

有一种爱叫做放手
为爱结束天长地久
我的离去若让你拥有所有
让真爱带我走说分手

为了你失去你
狠心扮演伤害你
为了你离开你
永远不分的离去

有一种爱叫做放手
为爱放弃天长地久
我们相守若让你付出所有
让真爱带我走

有一种爱叫做放手
为爱结束天长地久
我的离去若让你拥有所有
让真爱带我走说分手

********************************

Sorry..

- JinggHuann.

xoxo.

Ne-yo - So Sick ..

2010-05-16T09:22:00.000-07:00

This song meant so much,
But not for my feeling right now.
Buahaha~
Just i like it .. it a way?
Lmaoo. (:

And the music very nice,
I think if it could play in piano version,
It would be very nice. :DD

Lyric :

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cause right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cause you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walking round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Crying over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calendar I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Don't make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cause I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

- JinggHuann.
xoxo.

...:::JinggHuann ♥ All Alone & Emo:::...

Hate chiuu! x(

I wonder will it ever be? NO! (:

Bookssssss.

Lady Antebellum's "Need You Now." - My fav.

Form 4. (:

Best Friend. Kana Nishino.

;D

MSN kena spamming.

today morning. ):

(:

I just need music in my life so badly. (;

♥

Finally its over.

Examinations. (:

Its you - Michelle Branch

Hurt truly madly deeply with a smile.

Bruno Mars - when you're lonely

♥ 05092010 :DD

楊千嬅-可惜我是水瓶座

滚！！

Taylor Swift - White Horse (':

TS + SW again. (:

Hate it.

Sad.

Every heart. (:

♥ Listen To Your Heart. (:

Why do you appear in my dreams ..?

7/2/2010 ...

3rd Day ..

JinggHuann had fall to sickness .. ):

I hate today .. 19062010 ..

16062010.

Miaoo meoww~ x3

Westlife - I don't wanna finght

♥ 11062010

My stupidness ..

我爱的人，不是爱我的人。他心里的每一寸, 装满的 .. 都是另一个人 .. )':

Sighh ...

Craps post. Don't read it ...

直到你不找我 ( Until you don't find me anymore. )

爱上你 Loved you - By2 (:

It Ends Tonight - All American Rejects.

有一种爱叫做放手 (:

Ne-yo - So Sick ..

我爱的人，不是爱我的人。
他心里的每一寸, 装满的 .. 都是另一个人 .. )':